7 days later...

Well, i've been really sick the last week :/ I have the flu and went off my diet, not tracking anything - eating lots of icecream - because it was the only thing that soothed my throat. I'm still sick, but back on dieting track.

I joined Jenny Craig! AARRRRGGGHHH!! crazy huh?

I did the numbers... I used to be 147lb. I lost 27lb and went down to 123lb. I was wonderfully skinny at 123lb! Got married, moved to America and went up to 136lb - thats only 11lb less than my beginning weight - which I looked very chubby at :/

So I'm going on the program for 2 weeks - i'll weigh myself then, then start to track my weight. So December 22 is weigh in day. I plan on being very very good up until that time!!!

Another beginning

Well, not really. I've been sitting steady at 134lb for the last few days. I've been eating "normally" the last few days - which means eating around 1500 calories and exercising. I was feeling extremely hungry so I had to do that. Now its time for round two of dieting, hoping to make it to 131lb sometime next week. Oddly enough I do better dieting if I don't weigh myself. So I'll weigh in Saturday next week.

Breakfast:-

150 - Oatmeal
90 - PB
120 - banana

Lunch-
100 - Vegetable Soup (made last night!)

Snack:-
100 Grapes
100 Milk

Dinner:-
Going out for work dinner:/ I'm anticipating 600 calories. No drinking for me.
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1260

Wednesday December 1st.

I want to be 130lb by December 31st. I have so many get togethers before then and parties :/ So I'll have to be extra careful in the week and exercise a lot, and be moderate at the parties.

This week I have our office dinner on Friday night, an Italian night part on Saturday and I'm having people over for indian food on Sunday.

Friday I plan on having the Kobe burger and a glass of wine. I figure that will be about 900 calories all up. If I eat 600 in the day, that puts me at 1500 calories. I plan on going to the gym and burning off 500.

Saturday - Italian night. I'll eat salad and some pasta. I'll ask if I can bring some gluten free pasta.

Sunday - I'm cooking. So a glass of wine, a piece of Indian bread, non-fat yogurt and 1/2 cup rice and some curry.

I can factor it all in without gaining. I'm hoping to be 132lb by Saturday at least.

Today I'm allowing 1200 calories and I'm going to the gym also to burn 400.

700 - breakfast - bagel & coffee. I was starving!!!
250 - lunch - vege burger
200 - soup - dinner
50 - milk
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1200

November 30

Today I ate around 1000 calories and burned about 200 exercise. Net = 800 calories. Not bad.

I weighed in at 134lb after work today. 9 more pounds to go...

Good day yesterday

Yesterday I ate 750 calories. Not bad at all!

Today I plan on eating about 800. I'm at work today. Here's the plan:-

Banana - 120
Cabbage Soup - 350
Grapes/Strawberries - 100
Milk - 100
Oatmeal - 150
= 820

Maybe I'll go to the gym at lunch also...

Saturday 27

300 - breakfast
  30 - milk
200 - soup
200 - bread
300 - slice steph
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1030

Binged...

Damn it. I have 2000 calories to burn off this week. I plan on eating 1200 calories per day, and working off 2000 calories off.

On the good side, last week felt successful. My jeans feel almost back to normal.

Thursday, Thanksgiving Day

My husband and I are planning on hiking Thursday. So thats good in terms of activity! I'm 300 over from yesterday, so will give myself 1500 calories today (including the 300 over). So I can only consume 1200.

I'd like to eat healthy. Something like this:-

150 - Oatmeal
110 - yogurt
140 - wheat thing snack
40 - Hummus
300 - Sandwich lunch
100 - snack
300 - dinner
75 - milk
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1215

I ate 1400 calories. So all up thats 1700 calories. 200 more than I intended. I guess that'll carry over.
BUT I did hike for 3 hours. I probably burned something like 500 - 700 calories. But I'm banking on 300 calories which puts me at 1200 calories, plus the 200 carrying over tomorrow.

... No Title Day

200 - over from yesterday
240 - bar
400 - lunch
230 - bagel
20 - milk
220 - cookies
420 - cookies
100 - chocolate :/
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1830
300 dinner
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about 2200


On the flipside I burnt 1000 calories at the gym today. How crazy good is that?!

Catchup

The next four days I'm playing catchup after 3 days of binging

6 Bagel - 350
2 Milk - 50
5 WW Meal - 250
2 Yogurt - 110
3 Latte - 175
3 Turkey - 250
1 Salad - 100
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1285

I plan on going to the gym at lunch. Update: Burnt 300 calories on elliptical - I didn't have time to burn anymore.

Did I mention I hate myself today? I'm wearing my jeans as a reminder of how fat I've gotten. My jeans are SO bloody tight.

I'm going to my MIL house for dinner tonight :/ She baked a turkey. I asked if I could bring salad. So I plan on having salad and turkey.

4:40pm and I'm feeling hungry, which feels great at the moment.

So Tired...

I'm so tired of feeling depressed about my weight. I'm tired of feeling worthless and like the fat girl.

My friend who is also 5'4" and about 115lb told me "I was so busy at work, all I ate was a slice of pizza today". And that is how she is so wonderfully skinny!

I have a plan to catchup for this week, in which I went over again. I plan on weighing myself properly (not guessing) and finding out how much I really weigh. Tomorrow I'll take a picture of my stomach.